A lesson for a(ny) rainy day

Hi friends! It's a relentlessly dreary day here in NYC, so I can only hope that wherever you are, the weather is a little less temperamental!

In some ways, actually, the weather is a good metaphor for the way I've been feeling lately. I blogged about it last week, but the truth is, I've been going through an emotionally-dreary period for the past several weeks. It's almost as if a storm cloud moved in over my head, blocked out the sun, and made it extremely difficult to ignore the negative feelings that are usually easily banished or at least ignored. As it turned out, the capacity for self preservation that allows me to put the negativity on the shelf inevitably backfired, leaving me to contend with some difficult feelings that I'm still learning to sift through and manage with the proper coping skills. I'm sure we've all been there, which is why I wanted to share with you.

But...I can't help but think: when is enough, enough? When caution and the instinct for self preservation get in the way of having healthy relationships, and when that nagging voice inside that tells you that you can't do something gets so loud that it drowns out your cheer squad, it's enough. After all, when you put aside your feelings of unworthiness and go after your goals, there will be plenty of people who'll have something to say about it--maybe even a criticism or two. If you're not even in your own corner, how can you expect someone else to be?

I've learned a lot in the past week. I'm thankful for these lessons and for the hard truths they've made me face. I'm stronger, I'm smarter, and I'm certainly looking forward not back.

Thanks for listening :)

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